BREAKING BAD (Week 2)- Breaking the Code
Ever feel like you’re running in circles? Like you try really hard and move really fast but end up back in the same place? Well…get used to this page. You’re going to be seeing a lot of it this week.
Last week we talked about breaking the silence…about how hard but important it is to be honest. With ourselves. With God. Naked honest. We talked about how being ashamed and afraid of the truth keeps us chained to lies and chained to the dark. So we opened up. Maybe just a crack. But we entered into the conversation. Now it’s time to take the next step…but keep in mind…these steps build on each other. What does that mean? It means we have to keep doing what we started last week…being naked honest. No more being a slave to chains. Don’t stop being honest.
Listening for God is like trying to crack a code sometimes. This week is about breaking the code. Let’s have some real conversation about what listening AND HEARING God looks like.
That’s what a majority of people would say that listening for God is like. We ask how to listen, how to hear …and we get answers like, “listen while you pray”, ” read the Bible”, and the ever-popular one we threw at you last week in Day One with the spoken word video: “just be still.”
So we sit and listen and read the Bible. And frustration is born in the form of a million questions:
How does: “Josiah provided for all the lay people who were there a total of thirty thousand lambs and goats for the Passover offerings, and also three thousand cattle– all from the king’s own possessions,” apply to my life?
Do I need to become fluent in Christianese to understand covenant, sacrifice, atonement, redemption, conviction, sanctify, repentance, and a mess of other words I never use?
I feel stupid.
Why is this so hard? Some people really get this! I want to really get this! What is wrong with me??
I feel stupid.
I hear God loves me even though I’ve done wrong. I still feel guilty. I can’t figure this out. Sometimes I don’t feel guilty about things that I think a good person would feel guilty about. Then I feel bad that I don’t feel guilty. How is this Christian thing not about rules?
I am frustrated.
Also I am tired of feeling stupid and frustrated.
In all honesty, we don’t even know for sure what we are listening for. Just like the “Thunder” video from Day Five last week; we listen for thunder, but what if He is in the silence? What if I don’t know how to listen to silence?? It’s like trying to make sense of this:
This week you have choices again…but they all start here. You get to pick from the things that frustrate you the most about breaking the code….breaking the hearing code.
You can hear. You probably already do….you just don’t realize that it is Him.
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”
– Jeremiah 29:13
You WILL find Him. It’s not God that is being hard to find. It is the messy, fractured atmosphere of where we live that creates all of these filters and lies and fog that twists what is truly real. Welcome to broken-earth.
Broken. Not whole. Not logical. Not good. Not kind. Not right. Broken.
Earth. Not bliss. Not euphoria. Not heaven. Not even close.
It’s the noise and brokenness of broken-earth and broken-earth’s culture and atmosphere that get in our way. Oh, and also our pride. We think we know how stuff should work and when it doesn’t go that way than we think IT’S messed up…not our understanding of the process. But pride is totally a broken-earth culture mainstay.
So, yes. We are going to learn to listen…
talk with God openly and honestly about your biggest frustrations and hurdles in hearing Him. Contemplate what your inner atmosphere is like. Is it peaceful? Chaotic? Foggy? Angry? Numb? Bitter? Rebellious? Pray through this: do I like my inner atmosphere? What contributes to the way my soul lives everyday? What do I allow in that contributes to my inner climate?
For days two through four, choose from one of the following. Day five’s link is at the bottom.
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Scripture taken from http://www.biblehub.com.
Videos taken from http://www.youtube.com performed by Tim Hawkins.